I think I'm starting to have feelings for someone I truly care about. I'm so blessed to have him in my life as a friend. However I'm not sure how to come out and say that I like him. It seems like he has feelings for me, but I need more conformation about it. Sometimes he makes me sooo upset about the things he would say, but somehow I know that he cares for me, and I love it!
It's just a matter of time and completely trusting in the Lord for something greater! Merry Christmas and have a happy new year.

In the quiet

This is the last week of school, before we have finals. This semester isn't over yet. It's close to the end, and it feels like school is dragging forever instead of moving quickly like it should! I was hoping to make many friends, but what I realized is that I let my fear overcome me, and being afraid of rejection. So I pretended to put on this fake person that I don't even know. This mask is coming off. I don't care if I'm not happy all the time. Or if I'm not satisfied with where I'am. Or if I don't understand what is going on. The only thing I could count on is the love of God and that something good will come out of pursuing the one who love me first. Just like I want this semester to end quickly this season of feeling wretched, and useless and invisible to others. This season will soon pass, of dealing with anguish and pain on my own. One day things will change for the better. You will find God in the quiet. This is what he spoke to me in my heart. I will give you peace. You don't have to speak in elegant words to catch my attention. Your tears speak of all the anguish and pain that your bearing. Ah if you knew how much it grieves my heart to see you suffer, my heart is moved by your sorrow. Come and and rest in me and I will hold you in my arms while you weep. I love you more than words can say and I will stand by your side until the end of time.