Craziness 2

yea so as of now life kinda sucks but what can you say, things happen that are out of your control. Other than that I really don't know what to say. God is still in control.

Craziness

Friday night I was involved in a crucial accident, however I survived the accident very little injuries. The only thing that I'm suffering from is emotional pain that my father is giving to me about not going straight home. I wish I have a car and I wasn't living at my parents home anymore, but unless I get married soon it's not going to happen. Also the guy that I still like is completely ignoring me what makes me sad. I feel unimportant. I hope my good friend mike show's up, but I don't know. I'm grateful to be alive, however I can't deal with this emotional pain that I'm going through. I wish I didn't have to leave at my parents home anymore and I was able to live at someone's house. That would help a lil bit of the frustration that I'm dealing with. Sigh it will happen in due time.  

Stupidity

Basicly I got easily attached to someone who isn't interested in me. If someone is your friend usually you call he or she, or send a text message from time to time. It's hard to believe that he likes anything because he never initates much contact other than hey you coming to church? It is so difficult to ask them to hang out with you other than church gatherings? Not like I have anything against going to those things. Another factor is him being selfish, not once did he say that he appreciated me coming with him to whereever. To top it off he's been avoiding me like I have some infectious disease and I'm not quite sure why. So I'm left to pick the pieces of what's left of my life and trying to put them together again.
If I had the opportunity to talk to him one on one I would ask him a few questions.
How come you didn't answer my phone when I called you the other night?
So why is it you can make time to go to a particular place instead of asking hanging with me?
Are we even friends or do you view us as being aquaintances?
Were you ever interested in me, and if you are how come you never call to ask to hang out?

To be truthful I prob wouldn't ask him those questions for one reason only, the response I would get from him. The last time I asked him something it turned out to be a disaster. I'm just hoping he will keep his word by getting the book I asked to buy for me, so I can pay him back. Reality bites sometimes. I'm tired of bearing this weight on my shoulders. I just wish that someone that is a guy would love me for who I am. The good and the bad. I want him to be supportive, compassionate and not selfish for once in his life.

That's all I have to say.