The more I found about my ex the more I feel digusted. It's hard to forgive someone who lied to you and couldn't be completely honest to save his life, and then uses confusion or manipulation to get what he wants. I haven't talk to him since the last text I sent saying I find it hard to believe that he's trying to change. I stopped sending scripture to him because he would say amen and that's it. Does he even have understand the meaning of the term amen? It means let it be so.
I know the type of man that John can become but he chooses not to. His actions and the things he say are contradicting one another. That is what he's irritating!! God has such a wonderful plan for him, if he would see it. That's why I removed myself from him because i knew that all he was doing was using me and never showing any appreciation and telling me what I longed for him to say forever ago. How he is so blessed to be with me, and there is no other person that could take my place. However I never heard those words, and probably won't in the future.
I think that's what hurts the most. What sucks even more is trying to forget about him but yet I dream and think about him often. When he does come to mind I say a prayer for him and then I move on.
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